hilang dah 1 !

yup,hilang dah 1 and will be replace with 2,auw!2009 such an rollercoaster year for me,ups and down with consist of track that turn the rider briefly upside down,that is how i picture my life..

thanks family,friends,bf,annoying friends too cause u make my life colourful in joyful and fucking ways.

*sigh*

thanks 2009 ,too much joy u gave me ;)

oh,Mitch Albom u trigger my tears gland emotionally with your "For One More Day",

big hello 2010,hope ull do a good job like 2009 ,

jewish

jewish claims that they are "the chosen one",

it should be a wake up call for us,

what do u think?

AWAM,women take note,

One book that leave something for me to pay attention on women issues is 'Young Women Speak Out'that is published by AWAM,i bought that book few years ago.Its a compilation of writings by the participants of the writers of AWAM that addressing a range of variety issues on women,it enables us to realize women have their right,voices and vissions.

NOW IM SOO EXCITED TO JOIN AWAM AS IM ALREADY LEGAL ;)

its a society that engaged with women's right,rape,sexual harassment and domestic violence.

http://www.awam.org.my/

tuesdays with morrie ,

It's a book to remind me what life is all about. Its a story about love, compassion, forgivenes and every value that is important in our life.This book moved me to tears after i finished read it. It is filled with simple words from a wonderful man who really understood the true meaning of life and love. He teached us how to respect our community,giving love,It keep me close to Morrie who inspired me by his words,

"Death ends a life, not a relationship." (174) - Morrie

inspired,

For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

allergic

its been more than a month this allergic thing keep "ruining"my hand,ouch!i keep on scratching here and there like monkey,haha.i still remember how my lips getting biggy and more juicy mmuah because of these allergic and i still walked around uitm with dt angelina jolie wannabe or swollen,scary,juicy lips,aha!and now dt allergic thing keep hunting my hand,wey sumpahan ape ni?haha.now my hand looks like 'eeyyuuww,yuck',so i decided to go the clinic after been persuade by those who are concern or they just feel geli,i went after the futsal match kononnyala,so the doctor explain that this allergic happened because of food or stress and it will be a long term effect,aha tk blh pakai short sleeve dh,hihi!nvm,medicine will help me,shhhh bacteria,ihetchiu!

hahaha,alin,sara,cib,kaled jgn geli-geli taw,

u should read this.

Certain things have been hovering my mind.maybe some new things have been changing the perception and the way of my thought and my belief.I realize that sometimes I have a negative behavior, but it taught me lot in my life.From childhood, I have been educated with sense of relentless, at the young ,mothers often advised me not to believe people easily.In the romance, mother stressed that do not love men wholeheartedly, but I did not understand why.But when I grow the more I understand what is mother is trying to convey.One of my bestfriend,Mr Khaled once told me,i should try to understand why people take love problem as one of the major problem,that is one of my biggest mistakes.i hardly understand why people should exaggerate things.maybe u have the wrong idea that i have never been dumped before,haha hot la saya nih!oh tidak,u really dont have any idea what ive been thru in my past relation,i should say proudly no one can even beat me,seriously without crossing my finger,aha!It's like a horrible,worst nightmare and i really dont want to remember dt memory,that is why none of my friend know about it,.i waste my day with tears and luckily it didnt last long because i know why should i cried for a guy that dumped me,durh!when parents get angry,do we cry?guilty?or buying gift,spend money as a symbolic of apology like we did to our partner?hardly no kn?I realized that my love partner is not the one who gave birth,raise us up,so no thanks to bf,sorry que but thanks,u know me well and that is why my forces of attraction towards u getting slowly stronger.and i believe dat is one of the reason why people keep on askin if im still standing with u,yes because we never put a picture of ourselves getiing married in how many fucking years.haha!pentist dgn underwear pn mak beli,ni nk pikir nikah pulak ;)!gatai!ok lets start it with mr. hasiib and mr.kaled have been my shoulder to cry on but i guess i only lean to their shoulder for few times,maybe 3times and i still remember the 1st time i cried infront of u guys,aha mengada!i dont know how to express my sadness because since i was kid my parents taught me that crying is not a solution.sometimes,when anger cover my feelings,i will depend to them by sending short messages like'aku sedihla,mcm cibai'dats it,then they will call and ask me and i will turn the anger into something that is funny and something that is wasteful to think,the conversation almost looks like'kao pahal do sedih?'and i will go like'aku sedih,wey kao buat ap n bla..bla..n hahahaah!'.why should we be so emotionally,oh-so-called-women-heart?haha!i dont know if u get the picture of my belief that im being too harsh but that is me,so dont bother or feel frustrated if i motivate in my own way,saya tk sengaja,im used to it.One of my greatest teacher that is my mom once told me,"open up ur heart while u're young if u love ur partner",and it is so true,thanks mom.same like one of my english lecturer said,pn nora,open up ur heart,u're still young.yah,sometimes people take things so hard and not thinking of the solutions but likely to think crying over is the most effective way,i remember that one of my trainers when im in sarawak ask me,why he never see my cried and i asked him back,why should I, I have a perfect life that others dont have a chance to have.Crying is good as a way to make our heart relief but crying all da time,err is not a good idea ;)

menangis mengingatkan mati,pahala akan bertambah .

random.

"Better to remain silent and be thought a fool, than to speak and remove all doubt",

Abraham Lincoln

if u could understand ,

Je t'aime de tout coeur, mais on m'a toujours mal, je vais continuer à persévérer, peu importe ce qui arrivera.

i need carrot

my eye sight more severe and it makes me wonder why,sigh.
i went to wangsawalk to make my spectacles and I'm surprised my blurry of my eyes increasing

right-515
left-400 ++

ohmigosh !

now I realize that mount to the lens wear 16 hours a day have been damaging my eyes,luckily it doesnt effect untill im going blind ,durh!

so peeps,im starting back to wear my spectacles,ok its not funny,ok i will wear it sometimes not all da times,hehe

should i say "thanks family"?i should..

thanks baba,mama,along,angah,alang ;)

pavilion and royal chulan hotel for supper,

really made my dayyyy ,xoxo

kawan sampai akhirat

haha,finally i can catch up with u guys n pity that sara,su were not there,rara tapayah ckpla kn?i really miss u guys,omagad,i really love u guys,no words can describe how grateful i am to met u guys yesterday in an unexpected way..

sincere friendship will last longer ;')

we wont stick for each other but we know that there are places in our heart for 6 of us,mischiiiiuuuu!

shhh.

goodbye friend,not "friends" ;(

hope everything will be fine

alin,sara .. i heart u guys always ,ex oh ex oh!

OBSESSION

amalina kamal !

nor amalina babi,pg library slh bwk thumbdrive.on9 bukak web lain,baguihhhhhhhhh!!!

awk,cptla buat term paper,dh la pukul 5 nk submit,deadmeat do!

kaled bongok pg ipoh,yab pn sbb tk jwb fon.yg pandai hanya la hasiib.eh tk,kao pn bongok sbb kitorang tk call kao sbb kitorang tao kao mmg tk kn dtg library hantar thumbdrive,hahaha.sara pemalas tk nk hantar, !!!!!!!!

harap maklum,law 240 td sgt suuusssssssaaaaaaaaah!!!kene tipu bulat bulat dgn soalan spot ;)

akhirnya bio nik yg sudi nk tolong,yabbbbbbbbbbb!!!

Malays

Ive got my result for my costing paper,it wasnt good enuff.no!no!i have to pass this paper.ya allah,help me .

but there's something that caught my attention today in malaysia kini today,i on9 thru my mobile while waiting for cik sara kora to come to the library
here is the statement that sometimes realize all of us.

"Malays swayed by sweet talk,false promises",

its true right,i do myself admit that i easily swayed by sweet talk ;)

"We were silent when we were challenged and we turn blind when we were attacked.the spirit which was for unity,is now drawn towards dissidence and destruction"

selamat hari raya ;)

Tomorrow every Muslim will celebrate 1st syawal after fasting for 1 month,alhamdulillah,i only skip my puasa for 3days only ;)

been tired for today,i exactly look like Philipino maids with my "celoreng inner"and my jinjang pants,haiyo!

i dont have any bj kurung..yet!i think im goanna buy it tonyte n im goanna miss "takbir" in my nanny house,peluang utk cuci mata telah disia siakan,tkpe asalkn ada bj kurung!yihaa

lastly,AILIN AZURIN OTHMAN wishing u guys selamat hari raya everyone n sorry for my mistakes dt ive done.happy raya!

i smells like beef rendang and lodeh ;)

the truth.

"i just don't love u anymore",

i mean it and i couldn't do anything,being sick with u for all this time.



every bruise on my heart u gave me,thanks.

i should be thankful

Thanks mama and baba for the E75 phone and Perllini handbag,

Boyfie,thanks for the gorg Forever21 handbag,


p/s :
parents thanks for loving me,love u guys infinity

bf,heart u even u're such a jerk.


te amor u guys.

belief

"The hottest love has the coldest end."

the naked .

nasib u bg i kertas pink,tao2je warna favorite i kn?

thanks anyway,

going back beee-yotch.

im goanna miss home badly.

sad.

i dont want.

i dnt want to go back to uitm,its not like i hate dt uitm so much bt dt place is so boring.

i will 'bising2' to my mom everytime im goin back n she will say'quitje lah if ur heart is not here',wah kritis jugak mama ni,hebat!

i hate those
-pak guard n mak guard,certain je yg mcm ssh sgt nk ade perasaan hormat dkt org.

-wannabe,haha.puhleaze lah,uitm je ponnnnnnnnnn.

-dh booooooring dkt sane,sara kora n alyn jom2 buat2 tk nk balik.
*tk pack brg lagi,tp da beli pencil case.haleluyah!dgr tu ye !

hurt.

tkpa,tk salah u/bf nk gedik dgn org lain,go ahead,ill be fine man !

even if im not fine,ull never care .thx.



Baby I don't know why ya treatin me so bad
You said you love me, no one above me
And I was all you had
And though my heart is eating for ya
I can't stop crying
I don't know how
I allow you to treat me this way and still i stay

rakan yg meng'activate' adrenaline sy ;)

aleya hashim-one of my kawan-lama-baik-syg since we're in form 2 when at dt time tuition is da most favourite place to hang out or searched for a guy(ptot tk pandai)soo gedik!!we're so fucking childish,bring cakes to da tuition for da teachers.whattha fark kn?konon cute la?we've been thru up n down,thx to those fuckingretardpiggy bitch.tp takpa,jodoh.finally masing2 tersangkut dkt uitm s iskandar.jumpa u lagikn miang?i love u bitch ;)

random .

I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles even when her heart is broken, and the one who could always brighten up ur day even if she couldn't brighten her own.

kini giliran chib ;)

i love u bestie ;)

kao kaled,mmg cantik !

i tend to choose guy to be my bff and u're the choosen one ;)

oh future !

i've been thinking a lot about my future,my thought,my curiousity is mixing n oh y im so worried!herlow,im 19teen-a suitable age to start thinking bout my future.would it be perfect?since i was small,my hero is my father n if any1 ask me who is my idole,ill put my father 1st.i adore him !yah2,everyone will say'ya lah,bpk kao..mestilah kao suke'.no its not just a bout personal thing but i just adore how he handle everything and his determination !



Malaysia's Dato Othman bin Harun, Senior Assistant Commissioner of Police I, Deputy Director, underscored the importance of handling drug abuse cases,NST-his sincerity of his work which makes me proud of him ,;')

he doesn't care if people try to hurt him.i just love his sincerity.if we do our work sincerely,we will get da gain.kn?


EDUCATION
will i pass my study ?will i be an accountant after i finished my studying,argh!many people jobless due to the economic factor.i'allah,there will be an opportunity for me if i work hard,but it seems that i ignore my study n easily get distract with stupid things..

FAMILY
alhamdulillah,i've such a supportive family,tajuddin n harun family,i heart u guys! hope there will be more n more new comer n babies !;)

LOVE STORY
its gettin bored if our love story will be ended with break up n we have to try it over n over again.do my love life will be just like barbie&ken-'life is ur creation'or it will end up with a perfect marriage...

FRIENDS
i have lotsa of friends but true friends is hard to find.im good in socialising,ehem2!!i dont have to warm up with strangers,i will talk,talk n talk..minah pot pet mungkin!once i have a special friends,now i lost her,no one can understand how we feel without judgement or discrimination.discrimination is sooooo lame that many people get hurt by this phrase.

i learnt that everything happened for a reason which might be by our own decision kn?to have da bright future is not possible if we work hard n pray to ALLAH always..always..

emotionally unstable

God please give me strength to face all these,

sorry i cant treat u da way u want after so many things happened,
too many mistakes will depressed me more

;)

daammmmn,this is so funny ok !!i get this pic from a certain website n i never tot they will have this kind of idea !hahahah ;)

danish naufal ;)

.
!

oh favourite drugs !

meet my syabil and nadya ,

syabil & nadya

waitttt !kite belom mandi lg ni .aha !going out guys,daa !

i miss my old good friends ;0

aha,see how nerdy we are at dis time,still naive'yes mom,ok dad'time !aha,i miss u guys,though we're far apart,but i still love u guys !wey u guys changed a lot..dh adult do!

this picture was taken 2years ago-aha im still specky n dyba is so not blondie yet ;).adyba syg..mane awk?i miss u so much.sudah lama tdk berjumpa !we always have a lil chat thru fon bt its so different.u're in malacca n im in perak.dnt worry,im goanna spend my 2months hols to da fullest !

finale :/

Diploma in Accountancy.

21/4/09
9.00 AM-12.00 PM
FAR 150
TUESDAY,

28.04.2009
9.00AM-12.00PM
ECO 162
MONDAY.

4.05.2009
2.15PM - 5.15PM
QMT 181
FRIDAY,

8.05.2009
8.30AM-11.30AM
MGT 153
SATURDAY,

9.05.2009
9.00AM-11.00AM
CTU 151
SUNDAY,

10.5.2009
9.00AM-12.00PM
BEL 250/260

being stressed ;/

wrong percpective ;)

the strong forces of attraction tighten our chemical bonding ,

The Way I Love You

"After all of dis time that we tried,
I found out we were living in a lie,
And after all of this love that we made,
I know u don't love me the same."

the sweetness of love is only for temporary-my belief,my thought n u can't deny it.maybe i make things so hard or people don't notice how i feel n treating me badly bcus of my less sensitive n egoistic.people view,ailin is a funny,playful,don't take things deeply,laughing 24 hours..but i do have feelings though.yah,i treat u da way u want,but thanx for da way u repay me back love..

i wish i could drink a magic potion :0

2nd sem getting tough each day n im fucking sure dat i wont get a better result,god!Businees,economic,statistic,account,english,agama-* sigh*

Mereka HEBAT!

rindu plkn sarawak dgn awak semuaaaa ;)

im just aielyn

At the end of my day,
When I lay down to go to sleep.
I’ll close my eyes and your face I’ll see

Though times get hard, and I get tough to handle
Promise me one of many things? You won’t give up?
You won’t hurt me? Please? I’m very fragile.

I’ve been torn into many pieces so many times
That makes it hard for me to trust and love again
‘cause what if you say you love me like the other guy?
What if you say you love me and it’s a lie?

I can’t be Ms. Perfect for you.
I can’t and won’t do half the things other girls
do.

I’m just Aielyn. an average teen. But one who truly likes a guy
One she sees in her dreams. But what if I make a mistake,
Will you still be here? Or do I have to tell myself that you don’t really care.

I’m different and not very strong, sometimes I feel I’m not right for you, ‘cause I might be wrong.

I’m just Aielyn, not little perfect. Not to smart but I learned to deal with it.
Some days I don’t feel pretty, certainly not pretty

But I’m just Aielyn, if you don’t want me,
Well that’s such a pity.

Sometimes forever is not guaranteed but I want to be with you
For as long as you want me.

So at night when I lay down to go to sleep
Its your face I plan to see

Please remember to love me for meAfter all, I’m just Aielyn

Bonnie n Clyde baybeh!

this is so cool ;)

let's time revenge

x mao ;0

ma,i dnt want to go back to uitm.tolonglah.sudah 2sem,ttp hati tdk pernah melekat.y?

sudah pulang ;)

setelah berminggu2(3 weeks++) di UITM,haha..sy sudah pulang dgn wajah yg makin gelap,badan yg semakin kurus,otak yg semakin runsing ;)

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